tss.

Sometimes people really don't notice how they hurt people. I don't know why, but they seem to be numb. The feeling is like, "are you stupid? You already know I really love you, but you still don't see me." How come? Are you just busy with all those people, and you couldn't find time to see me standing in front of you? Or am I just so invisible?
Sometimes, you should just stop, look and listen. Sometimes it just hits me so hard. It hurts. I'm not outspoken nor expressive. I couldn't say it. But you'd feel it if you look at me closely. You'd feel every beat that slows down. Try to look at the eyes that becomes flooded with tears. You'd see my blush that fades away. I don't keep secrets from him, but I know he does. I try to understand things he says, he doesn't. He doesn't even believe me, then he questions my trust. I'm just a girl. I'm not that matured. I don't get mad, I get hurt... I don't want to talk with him 'cause I'd remember what he tells me. I don't know if it's true. I don't even know if he knows that I hate it when he says "magsama kayo". It's like he's disowning me or something. Tss. I may be stupid, but I'm pretty sure that I'm not numb.
When I tried to tell him, he got mad. He says that I don't trust him. I trust you. But if you were me, you'd think of the same thing. And this girl. You keep on asking me why would I get jealous of her. She tells people that you still like her. Heck.
But still. You're everywhere to me. My accounts. My phone. The computer. In our room. At school. I make a lot of mistakes. I'm not as smart as she is. I'm not as good. But I'm patient. I don't listen to ***************** rants. I tried to let go when you said bye bye, I couldn't... I don't want to let go.
Oh well. I better go. Just letting out the things that matters to me...

-marge.