May 4, 2009. Monday.

Right now. I just...want to cry. Everything shattered. Everything disappeared. My hopes. My dreams. My love. I feel dead, inside and outside. My eyes are swollen, and they hurt. But most of all... My heart hurts. It hurts like hell; the pain is excruciating. Maybe we really are not meant to be...


Sh!t. I wish this is only a dream. Only a nightmare... I wish...


The way he said goodbye... hurts. ouch. :(


His pride. I wish it is gone. Deleted. I wish it never existed.


I remember when I used to sing Sandali Na Lang by Hale. I was full of hope... But then the hope disappeared.


Sandali Na Lang
Hale

Sandali na lang
Konting panahon
Aking paghihintay
Na makasama ka

Sandali na lang
At abot tanaw
Ang pagkakataon
Na makita ka

Naiinip, nasasabik, kasing bilis
Nang isang iglap mahahanap
Sa may ulap
Nagtatanong, nagtataka
Ba't wala ka pa?
Nakatingala, nakatulala
Pero sabi mo

Sandali na lang
At nandito na
At ang panahon
Ay wala sa ating kamay

Huwag mag-alala
Maraming oras pa
Ang nakalaan
Para sa ating dalawa

Sandali na lang...

Well.. I think singing this is better for me now...

Skip The Drama
Hale

I can never be with you forever
I don't want to pick you up when you fall
I don't want to hold your hand
To make you feel good about me
You've been okay all of this time

Let's all skip the drama
Believe on what is real

I don't want to be the one who completes you
I know that I'll never make you whole
I'll never let you see me down
Hopeless and needing you around
We have all the time in the world

Let's all skip the drama
Believe on what is real

I'd give you everything that you want
But I won't let you
Cause I'm with you
And you're with me

Or maybe this song..

Back From Beginning
Hale

We used to be alive
We used to be happy
These irrelevant thoughts
Keep running into my head

We used to be in peace
Now we're both weary
So tell me the truth
Are we falling out

Oh are we running for our lives
The truth is I want you now
Like I wanted you last time
Are we headed to the end of this line
Gone to the other side

This place is so serene
Swallowed by sadness
This picture is not
What I have been looking for

We've never been apart
And now you're drifting
Further away
Further away from me

Can you feel
Can you feel it
It's all coming back
It's all coming back to you

I used to think we're done
Back from beginning

Ouch.

I'll remember this day.

It crushed me.

May 4, 2009. Monday.
9:07:15 pm.

I hope you're happy now... I hope you'll find her. But I still wish... I'm her.

I want to complete you... You still hold the key to my heart.



Well. Goodnight...

I hate to say goodbye, too.

But it really is goodbye this time.


:'(

-Margetot.

I love you.